Fat, beautiful, mentally ill. Cis femme queer. Love fashion and baking. Pronouns are she and her. Religious. In my spare time, dogs.
mentally ill people are not inherently abusive and mental illness does not excuse abuse. nothing excuses abuse and therefore:
- you have to take responsibility for your abusive actions
- you have to accept the consequences of your abusive actions
also please stop acting like bi people wanting a character to be bi instead of gay because they’ve had past relationships with another gender is so awful and homophobic. yes, irl people do have relationships with other genders before they come out, that’s fine, but a good deal of the time when FICTIONAL CHARACTERS do this, it’s an act of bi erasure by biphobic writers and that needs to be acknowledged too.and maybe, idk, bi people relate to that character specifically BECAUSE of their history w/ different-gender relationships and we want to be represented too?? wow incredible who would have thought
no one is saying that character can’t be gay, i’d rather any character be gay than straight, but if you shoot down any suggestions of that character being bisexual bc you think it’s homophobic for them NOT to be gay or that they’re ~validating the male gaze~ or whatever bullshit, please go away and rethink ur life choices
Fun fact about American health care: if I ever need an organ transplant, I’ll somehow have to hide my autism, depression, and anxiety from the doctors, or else I’ll be disqualified under ideas about quality of life. It’s really great to know how valued disabled and neurodivergent lives are.
So here’s a thing many people don’t know about me: I used to be a medical data analyst. (I still do it occasionally, but not as a full-time job.) It’s a pretty self-explanatory job: I took data - often in enormous datasets - and analyzed it to find patterns. (Obviously, we couldn’t associate these with individual patients; this was just after HIPAA had come into effect, and so this data was very heavily scrubbed to remove any identifiable information.)
One of the patterns I looked for was quality of life and quality of care for people with severe and persistent mental illness (SPMI). For our purposes, that meant major depression, bipolar disorder, general anxiety disorder, schizophrenia, borderline personality disorder, and “other SPMI” (I encourage you to not send me messages telling me how those categories are terrible, because a) it was ten years ago and b) I wasn’t in charge of the categories.) In particular, we looked at injury, illness, and death in people with SPMI, compared with the general population, while they were in the hospital and at certain intervals after they were released (30 days, 60 days, 90 days, 180 days, and 1 year).
People with severe and persistent illness were much more likely to become ill and/or die in the hospital or shortly after discharge than the “general population”. People with schizophrenia had nearly ten times the deaths while in the hospital, and twelve times the injuries and illnesses.
Just as telling were the notes associated with the patient records. There was a significant pattern in the terminology used. In patients in the “general population”, doctors tended to use the word “is”: for example, “patient is suffering from abdominal cramping”. In patients with SPMI, doctors tended to use the phrase “claims to be”: for example, “patient claims to be suffering from abdominal cramping”.
It was clear to us that medical professionals - in general, I know for a fact that there are doctors out there who don’t do this - were assuming that patients with severe and persistent mental illness were inventing some, if not all, of their symptoms - that the symptoms were not real, and therefore did not need to be treated.
And because of that, these patients were falling ill and dying at alarming rates.
This isn’t personal anecdotes. I spent more than a year analyzing this data - which came from actual hospitals in the United States - and finding these patterns. There’s a problem here.
(I would prefer not to give out the name I was using then in public here, but if you’re interested, message me privately and I’ll see if I can get you links to the articles.)